GAAAAAAAA

So if I am being honest I am a little frustrated.  Camp is coming upon us and we still don’t have a place to have it.  The place we have used in the past we can’t use this year (because of what happened at the boys camp and kind of being cheated of food and not getting what we were promised or what we paid for), this unfortunately is quiet common.  Also the other places we looked at, normally just have one big room, three bunk beds high where you shove everyone into one room. This really takes away from the relationship part of the camp, which is huge and such an important part of Camp Gozo.  Building relationships in cabins is something that I place such a huge emphasis on and I am scared having all 30 kids in one room, will take away from that aspect.  I also really want to encourage the kids to make new friendships (that is why friends are split up) and this will be more difficult with everyone in one room.  Also some places don’t have a green area to play wide games, or as always we have to be really careful that we don’t get cheated.

So to say the least I am frustrated. I pray and I pray to God for our own land.  For our own land that we can set up things the way we want and to.  We can cook whatever meals we want, enough food so the kids can have seconds (some of them in the past haven’t gotten enough food), we can do the snacks we want (ice cream sundays)  play bigger and better games (where we don’t have to worry about hauling all the material we need to a rented space), have camp fires (what’s camp without camp fires and smores and a wiener roast).  All these ideas I have and want to do, we will be able to do with our own land.  I am ready, I am ready for the next step, I am ready to move on, so we can do all the things that we want to do, we can have a cabin for  each group, with wont have to be worried about being cheated out of our money, if am being honest I am frustrated and a little sick of it.

And in my prayers, while I am praying for our own land and the other needs we have, you know what God tells me… Be STILL and KNOW that I am GOD.  This isn’t easy for me.  Those of you who know me well are all nodding your heads right now (Ingie be still????).  But I know I am not very good at this.  I need to be still and know that He is God.  I need to be still and trust in Him, I need to be still and know that He’s got this.  So while I wait, while I wait for this dream of Camp Gozo to come to completion and for every need to be met (He knows exactly what they are), I will practice the are of being STILL and KNOWING that HE IS GOD.  When I get stressed and frustrated, I will breath my deep breaths and I will be STILL and KNOW that He’s got this.