I am sitting here in my nice cozy home drinking hot chocolate as it is pouring rain, I mean pouring rain.  I have never in my life been so thankful for the rain until I moved into a house that relied on rain water for everything… FOR EVERYTHING, and as the rain comes pouring down, I am reminded of Gods faithfulness.  I sometimes don’t know  what God is up to…Most of the time I don’t know what God is up to.

In a season full of blessings, but also filled with stresses and questions and wonderings… God has always proved faithful.

From bunk bed mishaps, to sitting on the side of the road in a broken down truck on moving day, to only having seven girls sign up for the last camp, to wondering where my full time team is, cause if I am being honest, its a little hard doing this journey alone… but God has always proved Himself faithful and has always provided just what I needed, when I needed it.  From money to pay what we needed to get the bunk beds done, from a trusting carpenter to fix broken down trucks, to people to come a long and help and chip in a offer help and encouragement and a lending hand, just when I need it.  HE HAS NEVER FAILED ME YET….

But again, just being honest, I so quickly and easily forget this.  When only seven girls were signed up for the last camp, I was working outside leveling off some of the mountain so we can get more water tanks and tears were filling my eyes, wondering WHAT THE HECK, wondering if we should cancel, but then the food was already bought, but really WHAT THE HECK, we have all this space and all the staff and everything in place, will it even be worth it….and oh man was it ever worth it.  Man, God did awesome work in those 7 beautiful hearts.  They left knowing their worth, know they’re loved, knowing they can have different lives, knowing they don’t have to repeat the patterns of their parents, knowing the power and freedom in forgiveness.  It does break my heart a little as they hug me and tell me they don’t want to go because here they feel so loved and they don’t feel loved at home.  But God’s got this, He’s got them… He knows what He’s doing.  Unfinished bunk beds, broken down trucks and only having seven girls is not out of His control, its not a surprise to Him, it’s not nothing He can’t handle.  He’s got this and knowing that and seeing those seven girls leave different then when they came, seeing the 14 boys leave different then they came, it makes it all worth it and it does give me the strength to go on and keep pushing through even when there is so much wondering, to keep on trusting..

But I am going to have to remind myself of this, remind myself when I am wondering where my full time team is.
Remind myself of this as my good friends and neighbors moved back to the city so I am alone all the way up here and wondering if more people are going to come.
Remind myself of this when I took my truck in just for general maintenance, and precisely as I was writing this, the mechanic called and needs me to come in tomorrow cause there is something seriously wrong with the truck and he wants to explain it when I am there, he even used the word boom…

All of this is NOT A SURPRISE TO GOD
This is not out of GODS CONTROL
God is ALWAYS FAITHFUL
God has NEVER FAILED ME YET
He’s GOT THIS
and He is a GOD WHO KNOWS

and in no other God then Him, would I want to place my trust.





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